This picture is a bit blurry I’m afraid. The hubby took it to capture the moment of the little one and I on our iPads. I’m not sure what the expression on my face is saying!
But let’s compare it to a photo from about 3 years ago.
Times have changed.
The last couple of months have been interesting on my Thinking Slimmer journey.
When training for the marathon I found I had a problem because I didn’t want to eat much but I needed enough fuel to run. I stopped listening in the hope I could override my new behaviour around food. It took some work but I started creeping back to eating more as I listened to my body and trained.
2 weeks after the marathon, I figured I had refuelled and I started listening to my slimpod again.
But something wasn’t right. Nothing changed. I was still eating at the level I needed to for training but I was no longer training. Portion sizes were creeping up, I was finishing everything on my plate at mealtimes and still wanting more. I started snacking through the day again.
I was back to running every day before I started work, but even so I was getting worried that I was eventually going to end up back where I started on my eating habits.
Then I had a final session with Trevor on my personal journey and my world changed.
All my emotional connection to food disappeared and I had a huge sense of freedom. I ate food because it tasted nice. You can liken it to being like an 8 year old in a sweet shop. I was really enjoying everything I ate – but at the back of my mind was that worry – am I going to end up hugely overweight again?
I ran. I podded. I ate. I worried.
I talked to Sandra and realised that I needed to switch back to listening to my slimpod after my run in the morning like I always used to do, instead of at night.
And then I thought “sod it”. I have spent most of my adult life with an unhealthy connection with food. For the first time in my life that has gone. So I decided to just enjoy it and go with the flow.
And that’s what I’ve been doing.
And now, a couple of weeks after listening to the slimpod daily, and enjoying my food, I can feel it starting to kick in again.
I am starting to leave food on my plate at dinner time. I am starting to snack and then realising I don’t want to.
I don’t have any clear goals other than I want to get into size 12 jeans.
I am 40 in October. It would be lovely if I could get into size 12 jeans by then and the way things are now going, I’m on track for that.