This week we have come to Anglesey for a holiday.
The little one was great on the trip down with no sickness which is amazing. She did seem to start with a streaming nose though which is the same thing that happened when we went down to London!
We arrived on Saturday and by Sunday I had full on flu like symptoms. I'm only just starting to come out of the back of it now. I'm listening to my cold remedy but I don't respond very well to my own voice!
We have a holiday cottage and we are using it as a chance to give the little one a chance to meet her cousins and spend some time with her Nana. The little one is brilliant on holiday. She enjoys every moment of it and is a pure delight to take away. My sisters kids are close to her in age. The little boy is 2ish and the little girl is about 6 months younger. They had a great time hanging out together and the little one even cried when we tried to leave. I had quite a long conversation with my sister about my father. He is still in touch with her and my brother but not with me. When she was 18 and he split with her mother (my stepmother) he just upped and left. She was a real daddy's girl and when she spoke to him about why he told her he didn't love her. What a shock eh? My sister has had a really tough time of it through her adult years.
What the conversation did show me was that I don't have any emotional connection to that side of my past now. Previously I would have been shaken. I would have wanted answers - what was so wrong with me. Now, when my sister suggested I email my father, I asked why? What would I gain? I don't need anything from him anymore and that's a pretty nice place to be. I am indifferent to it all.
Last night we had dinner with my mother and the little one ran up to her when she saw her and gave her a big hug. My mother had got her a bunch of birthday presents so she even had stuff to play with over dinner.
Today we were going to go to an Adventure park with my sister and the kids but she let me know this morning that she wasn't well. I was quite glad because I'm still feeling rough.
We chilled this morning and headed to the Sea Zoo. The little one fell asleep in the car so instead of going there we just carried on driving and the hubby and I took advantage of the rare opportunity to have chat.
Despite the rain, we grabbed some chips for lunch and went down to the beach to eat them. We then went to Stone Science - a geological and dinosaur museum - where I used to work so I could catch up with the people who run the place. Had a lovely chat and the little one found some tiny stretchy dinosaurs so was in her element!
Anyway I have a really slow internet connection so blogging will be limited and there will be few photos - will sort it when I get home.
Meanwhile it's the hubby's birthday tomorrow (he already has his present which was a guitar) and Adam's birthday on Friday. We are not sure when we're heading home yet. Looking like Thursday or Friday at the moment.
But this has been a worthwhile trip. It has taught me I truly am free of the emotional shackles of my past. That really is amazing.