Somehow, meetings that I have in Newcastle have ended up being milestones in my personal journey.
Let me explain
I attended a meeting in Newcastle. The meeting took place shortly after my first session of Cognitive Hypnotherapy and also happened to be the anniversary of Adam’s birth. I had a total meltdown, missed part of the meeting and had to bug out of the next day
I attended a big conference in Newcastle. I had been worried that as I did work on myself and removed the mask then I would no longer be able to present confidently. That I would lose my competence. Because I believed that everything I did was an act and if I stopped acting I would be useless. The opposite was true. The meeting showed me that I hadn’t lost any of my abilities and actually it was better than it usually was
As I did the 3.5 hour drive to Newcastle, I was processing what had happened in a recent session with Trevor and I realised something. I realised that not only did I forgive myself for some of the stuff that had happened in my childhood, but more importantly I didn’t even need to forgive myself. There was nothing to forgive. When I got to Newcastle I wrote this post
And then there was yesterday.
9th January, 2013
Yesterday I attended the meeting as the new me. The person who is free of their past and what it used to do to me. There were parts of the meeting that were difficult. Other people in the room commented on the aggression and negativity of some people. I hadn’t even noticed. I felt it had gone pretty well!
And it shows that I am as comfortable in my skin as I can now be. Other things that happen around me are far less likely to cause me stress. They mean nothing to who I am. They are just a series of events.
As I drove home and chatted to my hubby it was clear what a good place I am now in. Things are good with life, work and my Cognitive Hypnotherapy practice.
This year really is all about enjoying the moment and seeing what comes along.