Yesterday was my birthday. Last year was such a big event that stirred up so much emotion – it feels weird to now be 1 year on.
Life begins at 40 they say and it felt to me at that time that I was really in a good place to get on with my life – free from anything. Little did I know there would still be layers that I needed to work through!
So let me try and reflect on what has happened this year…
1. My father and I have reconnected. It threw me into a bit of a wobble at first because the way he was with me challenged all my beliefs about myself. About being broken. I needed a little help from Trevor to get over that but with his help I now have what I think is a lovely relationship with my dad. He is supportive of me, open and honest. When he sees I am going through extra challenges he drops me an email of support. And in my birthday card he wrote this (which brought a tear to my eye)
"The butterfly represents transformation from an ugly beginning, it chooses to transform into a beautiful being that brings joy to many peoples lives. You are so much like the butterfly"
I almost have to pinch myself. I never could have believed it possible that I could have a loving dad. It kind of makes me feel all warm and safe inside. We haven’t yet met but I know we will soon. I haven’t spoken to him since I was about 9 so I am expecting it to be a bit of an interesting experience.
2. I left the day job and became a full time Cognitive Hypnotherapist in July. It is scary. I have a pay off from the day job to keep me going for 10 months or so but the business needs to sustain me sooner than that. And I have a problem because I am helping most clients over between 1 and 3 sessions. This is brilliant for them but a terrible business model where most therapists get to see clients for months. I absolutely love it though. Each time I am able to help someone it has me on such a high. I am now looking at doing a mix of as many things as I can including possibly some guest lecturing at the business school and local college. I now have 3 websites
Main therapy : www.thinkitchangeit.com
Weight Loss coaching plus other stuff: www.thinkchangebecome.com
Bringing up resilient kids: www.thinkitchangeitkids.com
I’ve also discovered the joy of Facebook for business : http://www.facebook.com/ThinkChangeBecome
I really hope that this business will be successful and sustain my little family. I really don’t want to go back to the old career – I feel I have found the thing I was meant to do.
3. We have applied to become foster parents and have been accepted into the assessment process. It was something that we tried many years ago but it didn’t work out for many reasons. I believe the time is right now.
4. The little one started full time school. Her reading and writing is coming on so well we are very happy. She has great friends and a great school. She is developing into the most amazing little girl. Caring and sensitive and a total nutter. Not a day passes where she doesn’t make us laugh.
I think that’s the main stuff!
So how did the day go?
Well when I got up the hubby did me a full breakfast while I opened my pressies. I had already got a Mac Air which I love and these were extras…I’m so lucky. So there was this iPad/iPhone docking station
And a surprise of a Nikon Coolpix L320 digital camera. I went out for a walk to try it out
The little one was a monster all day. I had arranged for her to go swimming with her friends, forgetting it was my birthday in all the other stuff that was going on. But something was up with her. She kept having tantrums and crying and complaining. And was generally horrible all day.
This was her refusing to smile for a photo!
For dinner the hubby did me a stew, which is my favourite, and we had fresh bread, key lime pie for desert and beer to go with it.
By 10pm I could barely keep my eyes open and headed to bed early.
So here we are. Another year has passed and I have no idea what the year ahead will bring but I do know that I have never been as excited about my future as I am right now.
I have never been happier and more excited. I feel incredibly lucky to have such a lovely little family, the most amazing network of friends, virtual and ‘real’, and I have the chance to help others as a day job. What more could I ask for?
(ok well on that subject if I could win the lottery that would take the financial worries away and I could continue to do what I love to do without that…but otherwise I could ask for nothing!)