If you follow this blog you will know that we have been going through the process to qualify as foster carers for Barnardos. It is something we have both wanted to do for a while.
We have completed the training assessment and are now into the process of filling in the assessment form with our appointed case worker. They have visited us once and put a number of dates in the diary for future visits. They will do between 8 and 10 visits all in all. What will they do on these visits? Well they go through your past with a fine toothcomb. They go into all the details of your childhood. Whilst I understand the need to know about stuff I don’t understand the need for the details. If you know anything about me then you’ll know that will probably take more than 10 sessions too!
The hubby was getting increasingly concerned about me. He didn’t want to see me brought down by re-living stuff again when I am in the middle of the process with the police and have already been through hell with them.
Then I spoke to a friend in the police who knows how the process works and it was clear that if it progresses as I hope it will (and it is moving, albeit slowly) then I will end up in court being cross-examined.
I can not go through that and go through the process with Barnardos at the same time. To be honest I don’t even know how I’m going to do the court thing but I will because this is not about me – it’s about protecting others.
So we have notified Barnardos that for now we will not be able to continue with the process. It’s been a difficult decision but I believe it’s the right one and I must admit I feel quite a sense of relief to know I won’t have to go through that. I have also suggested that maybe I could work with them on a professional basis. It was certainly clear from the training course that I have a lot to offer.
So for now my energies are focussed on the next steps with the police.