Then I went to the NCH event and spoke to Dr David Hamilton and he suggested I write a book because it was such a great way of putting things.
So I did. I wrote the book. It’s finished in first draft.
I am now actively seeking a publisher for the book. Dr David Hamilton says he will write the foreword which is great.
I could self publish of course but I want this book on the shelves. I want people to talk about it and buy copies of it for friends in the same way as people did with Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. I may be deluded but I believe this book can have the same impact in changing the way we think about the way we think. It is not about making money it is about getting out there because right now everyone I tell about these rules say they totally make sense. It helps them understand so much of why we act the way we do.
The TED talk was due in May and I kept chasing but heard nothing. Then I got this email yesterday
Looking over the development team's decisions, I regret to inform you that the application was unfortunately not successful at this time. The personal feedback is awfully short but mainly points at a discrepancy between the general theme and your topic. I can however assure you that we have all thoroughly enjoyed your research and wish you all the best luck with your next book! We are declared fans of the topic and its analogies.
We have unfortunately had a huge demand and recent increase in speaker applications. They were all fantastic, but the team has prioritized the ones that had strict relevance to this year's theme.
Thank you very much for your attention and your time, we are most honoured by it! Best of luck from here onwards!
I was gutted but I tried to look at it in the positive “When one door closes, another one opens”. I went back to the TED site and searched out the next available talk in the UK that was a drive away. I found Newcastle in June. I sent an email. Reply came back that it’s full. Gutted again.
But it got me thinking.
I am not yet who I want to be. Whilst inside things are ok I am still battling the weight demons. I know what it’s about. I know it’s about protection and I know the stuff with the police etc has kept this all at the front of my mind lately. I am putting weight on not losing it. I know I still have something to work on. I am seeing Trevor in July and when I thought about doing a TED talk in May looking the way I do right now it has been bringing tears to my eyes.
So maybe this door is closing for a reason right now. Maybe it is not the right time to have a video of me talking which is potentially shared with tens of thousands of people and all I can think when I see it is “eurghhh”
Maybe it would be better to have the book out there and a demand for me to attend speaking engagements as a result of it.
If this is a one door closes, another one opens situation I can see that it might lead to something better.